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I’m Afraid to Die

say it to my face I’m a liar and a girl
I want what I want and sometimes my word isn’t good
can’t stand on its own two feet like it should

give up my name, build a house, ride a horse
and when i find the time I’ll show remorse for the days lost
for the things that i forgot

like you
i like you
i need you
i’ll be you
in another life
I won’t have the time
i won’t fold and cry
won’t be afraid to die

oh i oh i oh i oh i o i o i o i o i o i

uh huh
save it for me, save it for me
save it for me I want it
save it for me, save it for me
I won’t break and drop it

save it for me, save it for me
save it for me I want it
save it for me, save it for me
I won’t break and drop it

standing outside of a glowing brick house,
feet in the dirt and my eyes dart around,
i can’t find my nerve,
when’s it my turn
am i the one whose love is earned


Lifesaver

Aye aye can be your lifesaver
your dream maker
your falling star
and it’s strange
that i’ve become the saviour
for the baby in the manger of your heart

tell me about the street where you grew up
and the winter when it got really cold
(.. hello?)
i wanna think about you as a little kid
reach out a hand to hold
(what’s your emergency? ok please hold)

Aye aye can be your lifesaver
your dream maker
your falling star
and it’s strange
that i’ve become the saviour
for the baby in the manger of your heart
(one more time, from the top)

aye aye.....
(you hit an iceberg? oh god,
where was the captain during all of this?
he was literally asleep at the wheel?
fuck. come on.
how’s the ship doing?
it’s in half? ok ok.
um is everyone getting on the life boats?
there aren’t enough of them?
oh my god.
what’s happening out there!
listen, I know this is 911 i know you called me,
but there’s nothing I can do.
So goodbye)

not a thing that i can do for the danger
I am the air I am the fire breathing spark


Left on Light

So I am my own friend
gone are the days where I would pretend 
I am light enough to burn away the end
it gives me freedom to be weaker on the bend

in the road

i slept like a stone
my heart didn’t flutter
ready lioness when wave hits rudder
cause what do i know and where do i go
who other who other who other

so you wanted me to go
at the end of my life meet you at the door
i’d be a liar if i said i wasn’t told
to keep a light on, to keep the hope

burning away
i burn it away

so what’s left when you call me
i’m exactly where you told me to be
part and parcel, heart and home, and your baby
these are just shadows of what i was meant to see
entire oceans that i will never reach


All Apart

body like a broken heart
you said no but i was all apart
over your shoes, over your coat,
melted down, dripping slow
oh
tell me what i have to do
i broke my neck trying to kiss you
wrapped around, leaving out
what i thought you wouldn’t care about

I’m not a liar, I’ve got my fill
one hand in the fire is enough
oh now you’re crying like it was that bad
forgot you weren’t strong enough

it’s all part
of your lying mouth your sweet oh god i’m part
of this winding down, this fever pitch i’m part

all apart
all apart
all apart


Nightmare

Nightmare
I was talking bout my nightmare
you were sleeping i was right there
saying something, i dont know
oh nightmare
you were talking bout your nightmare
saying something i did not care
my foot already out the door

you are not destined for much darling
you are not destined for much dear
you are not destined for much darling
you are not destined for much beyond a starring role

in my nightmare
i was talking bout my nightmare
saying something you did not care
but my words you tend to ignore

you are not destined for much darling
you are not destined for much dear
you are not destined for much darling
you are not destined for much beyond a starring role

in my nightmare
i was talking bout my nightmare
you were sleeping i was right there
saying something, i dont know


Boston

When you’re friends with a runner she’ll punish you for knowing her real face
stick with me angel i’ll harbor your fears and disappear without a trace

forgive me for what i am and what i’m not
sheepishly you’re the past and the present i got

i was in boston kicking myself for giving in to what you want
the easy way out was to get on the train and to cry, i cry a lot

forgive me for what i am and what i’m not
sheepishly you’re the past and the present i got

let’s leave boston
i will drive the car
let’s leave boston
you can sleep
i’ll take us far

let’s leave boston
i will drive the car
let’s leave boston
you can sleep
i’ll take us far

let’s leave boston
i will drive the car
let’s leave boston
you can sleep
i’ll take us far
i’ll take i’ll take i’ll take


Oh Star

oh oh star
you are good, you are bright, you are far
oh, oh my heart
is alive, is awake for this part

tell me you like it  (you like it)
tell me i’m good (i’m good)
say that i’m crazy and that i should (should I baby)
keep on going (going)
where we’re going (keep going)
cause where we’re going (i can’t go alone baby)
tell me it’s over (it’s over)
tell me I’m bad (I’m bad)
say that i did something to make you mad (did i baby?)
i am sorry for what I’m sorry for

oh oh star
you are not the one to blame for these scars
oh, oh my heart
is a rage battered horse in the dark

tell me you like it  (you like it)
tell me i’m good (i’m good)
say that i’m crazy and that i should (should I baby)
keep on going (going)
where we’re going (keep going)
cause where we’re going (i can’t go alone baby)
tell me it’s over (it’s over)
tell me I’m bad (I’m bad)
say that i did something to make you mad (did i baby?)
i am sorry for what I’m sorry for
I am sorry for what I’m sorry for (baby)


Little Black Cat

You don’t know what you’ve done
You’re the little black cat and I’m the sun
Reason comes to me in small doses,
carefully bent over backwards
oh this feeling is fleeting
oh babe if you’ll keep me

you have nowhere to run
cross my path little black cat
I’m almost done with being
so scared of you
protecting you
believing to
love is to destroy

so destroy me
destroy me
destroy me


Whale Song

oh come a little closer to me
I’ll be your witness
I’ll be whatever you want me to be

I know you’re tired
you know i’m lying
cause how would i know
the depth of the sea

oh take a little piece of me
cut right to my heart
it is only fair if we have seen eachother’s parts
oh i’d lay right here and die with you if i wasn’t as smart

I know you’re tired
you know i’m lying
cause how would i know
the depth of the sea

let me build a bridge right from you to me
oh all that i can do is touch your bones
hope that you are free


Caterpillar

Oh my God
I’m not who I thought
Do you see these wings
Can you see everything that is here will fall
Oh all, oh all, all my love.. all mine.. all I’ve known.. all that was...

I just want to know
I just want to know
what will happen to you
what will happen to you

i just want to know
i just want to know
what it’s like


Strawberry

You’re so lovely
like a movie
that it would kill me
to give you up
my february-grown strawberry
so rare, i’m scared to touch

oh I’d
give up my life for it
i’d keel over and die for it
but you’d prefer me alive is it
my fate i have been given?
oh i’m not used to feeling
this feeling

i won’t give it up
i’ll give it up
cause we both know
i’m not enough
to give it up
you live it up
and maybe it will be enough

oh you’re so lovely
like a movie
that it would kill me
to give you up
my february-grown strawberry
so rare i’m scared to touch
and i
can’t get enough


Beating Heart

Sugar
Tell me when you’re low
when you’re feeling alone
Oh it’s a long long road but I want to go
where the bird gets its song if you’ll have me along
I’ll be quiet, won’t get too tired and we’ll
go on and on and on and on and on
singing our song

oh glue your beating heart
right next to mine
i’ll do it for ya
fucking adore ya or the stars don’t shine
and when we have to part
though that wouldn’t be smart
i’ll just rip my skin off and bleed out and die

oh i’ll be fine
(it happens all the time)